Monday

Well, we had our bt on saturday and Doc D actually called me to say congratulations (i told her i thought docs only called with bad news - but she does the good news too). I couldn't believe it! I don't know what to do or say or feel. I think i'm still in a bit of shock. She said my pregnancy hormone was 119 which is great for 9dp5dt. They look for anything over 100 on 11dp5dt so our result was great. Also said i could get another bt on monday to see if it was going well which i said, yes, definately. I'm a bit paranoid.

We were in the car driving to Canberra at the time with 2 of G's siblings and one of their fiancees in the back seat so it wasn't like G and i could celebrate right away. G wasn't sure if he wanted to tell anyone yet. He didn't even want his parents to know! But in the end he fessed up to his mum. She was asking how our "star" was and i was giving him dirty looks so he told her. By the end of the w/end, his little sister knew as well (i told her) and i had to tell his mum to not get too excited because i didn't need the extra pressure. There are some advantages to keeping things a secret.

So still waiting for the results of today's bt, but everyone keeps telling me what a good result it is. I'm happy, relieved, excited, but i think at the same time, i keep remembering our 9wk miscarriage (which not many people know about so wouldn't understand why i'm so paranoid) and so i'm still a bit cautious about getting ahead of myself. The nurse today who took my blood was a bit puzzled as to why i was there, saying that my result on sat was really good.

I am happy but it will be nice to get the call to say things are going well.