People who don't have to go through IVF have no idea about it nor do they want to. Those lucky buggers! But you would think that close friends would at least try and take an interest.
My friends have called egg collection "that egg thing", "egg exportation", "egg hunt" and one person actually thought we were going to a farm to collect hen eggs.
I couldn't sleep last night worrying about the end of this cycle and what it might mean. Stressing that there will be nobody to look after my business, therefore we'd have no income and end up living in a box on the street. I suppose that is a bit overly dramatic, but i think about these things.
To pass the time til 12.15, i'll be accompanying my friend T to her doctors appointment. She just found out the sex of her child and i'm so excited for her. I think if this cycle fails, i wouldn't be in any state to go with her but at the moment, i'm fine.
My accupuncturist says i look calm and ready. More so than last year when i first went to see him. He gave me some accupressure points to press to help relax me, told me to breath deeply and wished me luck. So committed is he to my situation that he won't be seeing me on egg transfer day (as it's on a Sunday).
I wish i felt calm and ready. Ready for the two weeks of standing just on the edge of a cliff but not able to look over it to see if there's a bridge or just a vast area of darkness.
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