Secrets are tiring

I had a bunch of people over last night and decided it was just too hard keeping things a secret and i ended up doing a show and tell of my needles and drugs. They were horrified.

Fertile people have no idea about what goes on in an infertile's world. They are the lucky ones who think that getting pregnant is just a matter of having wild, glorious sex and suddenly, they are pregnant. They think that because, what the hell, that's what happened to them. It's just not fair.

I think that this cycle is a bit more traumatic for me, emotionally. i seem to be all over the place and just grumpy alot (so much for my positivity). The injections hurt more, the time between blood tests is taking longer. I asked G the other night if he could just inject me with all my doses of drugs now so maybe egg collection could be the next day. He laughed.

I did get some good news yesterday. My bloods came back and all looks on track. (Last time, my hormones weren't doing what they were supposed to so they had to double my drug dosage.) I guess this time, it's all looking normal. Yes, it is the little things.

Anyways, i ended up telling the in laws too. I mean, i couldn't just put a bright orange cooler bag in their fridge without them noticing. But like i said, secrets are tiring and i'm sick of keeping them.