We've made changes to our ultimatum. We're going to try again right away. And we'll also try working on the business a bit longer. Sigh... Happy about part one. but not too sure about part 2. I sometimes think that the business is keeping me from getting pregnant. Because i can't let go of work, of the responsibility. And it doesn't help they my effort is 80% of our income...
Any ways, went to the swanky new digs of the clinic and got my final bt of the cycle which was, of course, negative. Came home to a letter informing us of an over $1000 price increase of their services. Yikes! A sign to give up?
M came in (doesn't know what we've been doing) and annouced that after 6 IVF tries, one of his friends is preggas. A sign to keep going?
I guess i don't believe much in signs. I do trust that there is a God and he cares and things happen for a reason. I have to believe that or i'd go stark raving mad. But signs, they can be taken in so many ways and manipulated to suit. Though, i do wish there would be a lightning bolt that would tell me to just give up or keep going.
Got the ok to start another cycle right away which we will do. I don't think i thought it would take this many tries. Doc D is always saying that i'm "young" but that doesn't give me any comfort when i'm failing and there is no reason for it.
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