Normal... not.

The obsessing is over. I had been reading my TCM book and following the instructions for all these things that could help me get pregnant. This included eating no dairy, no wheat, only warm foods. That book was also responsible for my fascination with pineapple.

Well, stuff it! Nothing's going to help. I feel like i'm just waiting for my period to begin and then i can start looking forward to Christmas without this THING hanging over my head.

I am grumpy... so very grumpy... like a mammoth case of PMS. So i've been stuffing my face with pasta, liberal lashings of butter and milk, drinking cold water, putting sugar in my tea. I've decided that nothing... really.. nothing is going to help. Forget the abstinence thing too!

I just don't understand it! i just can't believe anymore that this might work. That i have 5 days to go in the 2ww and i might just have good news. I am instead preparing myself for the aweful task of telling all the wonderful people in my life that it's another failure.

The only good thing is that i'm able to be normal (well, judge for yourself). To not think of it too much, to just get on with things and wait for the eventual spotting in my undies.