8 more days

I'm feeling decidedly "normal" and i don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. Other than the stabbing pain that occurs ever so often on my lower left side and my not being able to get a good nights sleep, i'm feeling the same as i always feel before my period. (Now that i think of it, i've had that stabbing pain before my last 2 periods anyways.)

I'm not a naturally optimistic person, having written off this cycle at my first ultrasound, i suddenly found some positivity when they told us of our good blastocyst. In my excitement, i had told everyone and showed them pictures too! Now that we're into the waiting, i'm not so sure i should have done it because if it doesn't work, the disappointment will be worse for me and everyone who is hoping for the best for me.

Things i am doing to minimise the madness:
1. eating pineapple (it apparently helps with implantation)
2. staying relaxed (well trying to, but it's not that easy)
3. taking fish oil tablets (supposed to help somehow)
4. attempting optimism (and failing miserably)
5. taking a peek ever so often at our blastocyst (but now not convinced about the quality because it looks blurry)
6. trying to work to stay busy but not so much to be stressed
7. obsessing over my Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM) and infertility book and pretending that something, anything will help

In other news, after all this, my accupunturist has decided to move away. Seriously, i had gotten a bit dependant on my weekly trips to his table. Sad, very sad.